Lately, I've had trouble believing this is real life. You want to pay me to organize and plan? And not just to organize and plan, but to do so with swimming related activities? Pah-lease. You must be kidding me.
It was just a few weeks ago I went to the state meet by my house and sat for hours by myself in this most energized, exciting environment.
I got chills just being a part of it again. It was at this meet that I interviewed for a coaching position...although I only thought it was going to be an introduction. It's a good thing I had my professional experience and recent interview practice so I could wing it coming up with great questions. However, I did laugh when asked if I was hoping to stay working in insurance...not my dream. I had no idea my days were limited in this little, soul killing, cube of mine.
I went back to work and waited anxiously waiting to hear if the team would be able to find a spot for me. I almost passed out at my desk when I got my email saying it was going to happen. I had forgotten how much I missed/cared about swimming and to be given another chance was just too exciting to comprehend. I started packing and saying goodbye to all my new friends.
No, it wasn't easy. There was a lot of emotion involved. It felt a bit like this. Too much excitement that would just bring me to tears, relief to be leaving my cube, sadness to be leaving my friends and the life I created, sadness to be leaving my first home that I really got to call my own...I'm sure you get the point. I cried saying goodbye to my friends and leaving them at their cubes, hoping they too can find something that matters to them and that they'll be willing to take the risk to be happy. I cried going to bed for my last night in my apartment and I cried eating my last breakfast at my own table (but that may have also been because it was cold cereal out of a cup with a plastic spoon).
There is also something overwhelming seeing you're whole world...all that you own...stacked in your parents garage.
But at the end of the day, my new boss is awesome and seems to have high expectations for what I can do. He also seems to be genuinely investing in me and helping me build a career out of swimming, for which I couldn't be more grateful. He's been very understanding in the drastic switch I made for a career choice and it's very helpful knowing that he understands it was a big shift. He's already got me building the swim lesson mission and vision statements, developing the registration system online, and planning the week long swim camps the team will be hosting. I'm so grateful for all that he's trusted me with and can't wait to see where this will take me. Although I haven't been on deck for my own group yet, I've been visiting the other groups this week to learn a bit more and get my head back in the game, and let me tell you, I love it. I can't believe I get to call this work and although there will be kinks to figure out along the way, I know I'm in the right place and made the right decision.
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